If you remember, a few weeks ago in this post I mentioned that Jill Scott would be doing a talk here in DC at the Native American Museum. I was hyped! I love Jill Scott. All of her songs make me feel like we are having a personal conversation about our experiences. About life, love, being a woman. I love it! I love her. Every time she comes to the area I go to see her. It just happened to be that this time she was giving a talk instead of singing. I was totally cool with that. One of my daughters daycare teachers asked me what she was going to be talking about. “*Blink* *blink*I have no clue, but I’m there!” Because honestly, it’s Jill Scott! She could stand there as a piece of art and I would still be there to watch. Luv me sum her!
That night I learned a lot about Jill Scott, but I also learned a lot about myself. She talked about not wanting the fame and recognition. She just wants to sing and be herself. The fame was too overwhelming for her in the beginning so she did what many would consider to be the unthinkable – she tried to sabotage her sophomore album. Because then we would forget about her and she could just go back to loving singing and no one recognizing her. Uhh, well, too late. Also, she just happened to have that golden nugget of a song called Golden on the album. Woooo chile! Golden is my feel good song! More than that though, look at God! He basically said you can TRY to shut down the gift I gave you, but I’m not here for that. I love it! She still shined.
What most of my readers don’t know about me is that I have a love for acting. Always have. I acted from the age of 5-24. I stopped because I had a director who was pretty emotionally abusive and it made me not want to go on the stage anymore. So now I act in my head in my living room. I memorize lines from my favorite shows. I imagine the different roles I can play. Then I stop. It becomes painful and I stop. The stage was my home. I left all of me there every time I was on it. Not acting is like living with very little oxygen everyday. It feels very weird not to act. It makes me feel a little lost. I don’t like that feeling, but the stage, the experience, it still scares me. I was reminded of this when Jill mentioned that she had to sing. Had to. Like, she doesn’t actually have a choice.
This whole talk with Jill encouraged me to strip the layers of fear and live my authentic life. Continue to grow into the me that God wanted me to be, and pursue those things that scare the crap out of me. It’s there that I’ll find the growth I desire!
If you weren’t there, I wish you could’ve been. It was pretty inspirational. Lucky for you, there’s a video of her talk available, yay!
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