As I sit here typing I am beyond exhausted. Last night I played nurse, yet again, to a sick Johanna. It’s going on 3 weeks that we have had to battle this illness. I believe she was getting better, but then got the flu spray. I think it is giving her flu-like symptoms, but she’s two, so she can’t really communicate what is ailing her at this point.
I’m struggling. I’m struggling to be the kind of mom you read about in the HuffPost or see doing crafty ish on pinterest or tv. They’re so cheery and perky, and their house is festive and in order. They look super put together and so do their kids. They give you that fake grin telling you how much of a mess they are, or their house is and you, well, I look at them like bish please! You want to see messy? You want to see someone that looks raggedy? Come on over to our house because I do not have an ounce of energy to devote to anything right now! I have a million things on my to-do list, but really all I want to do is sit in my bed and cry. When will I ever get them done? Better yet, when will I ever be one of those stupid moms that I see in the media???
Some days I really feel like I’m failing as a wife. Wives are supposed to be able to keep crap together, but I’m failing miserably. I’m a wife who needs a wife! So, riddle me this – how do you stay organized when you feel like you have a million deadlines and you’ll never be finished?