Today is a big day for me. It is a day that determines so much in not only my future, but in my family’s future as well. With that said, I started to come here and write about my fears, like my fear of me having to stop homeschooling Johanna and her having to go to public school and not have Jesus infused into her education like her father and I did. I think you know by now that we are big Jesus lovers and we want his influence in Johanna’s life in every area possible. But I’m not going to go on a rant about that, not today anyway. I am going to name the things that I am thankful for instead because it’s so much more powerful, encouraging, and light.
I’m thankful for my family. I’m thankful that my husband tries to give me a few moments to myself in the evenings to do whatever it is I want to do. I’m thankful that Johanna is a daddy’s girl and she knows what it is to have her father’s love. She knows how it feels to be accepted by her father, loved by him, and cared for by him. I’m thankful that he is not just here for her physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. I’m thankful for his relationship with Christ and his growth in Christ. He stepped up in his spiritual maturity at a critical time for us and God has been blessing us ever since.
I’m thankful for Jesus. I’m thankful that he is an amazing father. I am so thankful that he has not only loved me, but disciplined me as well. It did not feel good just as it doesn’t feel good to our children when we discipline them. However, just as we discipline them out of love, concern, and to see them grow/mature/prosper, so does God. I appreciate him for that. I’ve cried. I’ve screamed out just like my 4 year old has, but I’m better for it! Abba God wanted better for me so he put me in a situation where I cried uncle and fell on my face at his feet. Then he did the most beautiful thing. He let me face the consequences of my actions, but carried me the whole way. If people knew what I was really going through they would probably be shocked. But God has steadied my spirit, and seriously gave me peace beyond understanding. Like, I’m literally walking in the grace of God! And it is Ah-may-zing! I’m so thankful for him. His love for me is so overwhelming that it makes me want to burst. It’s too much.
I’m thankful for the opportunity to home-school my child. It gets so hard sometimes, but when she gets it, it’s beautiful. It’s worth the difficult times. I’m thankful that Johanna wants to do well because that pushes me to do better by her when teaching her. I’m thankful that I can teach her whatever she wants to learn because I’m homeschooling her. I love that our curriculum includes bible study, dance parties, washing dishes, and baking. I’m glad that I know her on a better level than anyone else simply because I spend all day just focusing on her. She can rock my nerves when she’s being completely 4, but majority of the time she is brilliant. She’s cute, and sweet, and too loud, too caring, too sassy, too soft-hearted, so much goodness. I thank God that I have been able to experience this.
I’m thankful for trash tv. Not all of it, I watch very little tv these days, but for the couple of shows that I do still watch I’m thankful. My life is not quite as exciting as the ladies of Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, so I love the hour I have to just zone out and watch them. It gives me a whole ‘nother appreciation for my simple life.
I’m thankful for Pepper, our cat. He’s so incredibly sweet, and he takes all of the tough love Johanna gives him, and she does give him a lot.
I’m thankful for my church. Thankful that it feels like home. Thankful to be able to go to a place where I can hear the true word of the living God preached each week.
I’m thankful for toe nail polish.
I’m thankful for 60 degree weather because seriously? If I never see winter again it will STILL be too soon.
I’m thankful for the friends that still call me when something major in their life happens. Motherhood has almost swallowed me whole, but I still love my friends and want to be here for them as much as I possibly can.
I’m thankful for my dad. He is kind, he is pure, and he has rarely told me no. Every girl needs a father like that.
I’m thankful for my Keurig, although I won’t be using it much anymore. I didn’t know how unhealthy those pods were for the environment. Yikes! I still look at my machine fondly though.
I’m thankful for facebook. It drives me batty, but it has helped me stay in touch with family and friends, and the groups have taught me so much! From how to supplement Johanna’s education through Netflix/amazon/hulu, to free homeschool lessons and kid outings in DC. There’s a million groups for all of my interests, and why yes, I am on information overload, but I love it!
I could go on and on, but I’ll end this list with this. I’m thankful for everything God has blessed me with. And I’m even more thankful that I am finally, FINALLY learning how to handle it all with wisdom and grace.
What are you thankful for today?