January 1, 2016 rolled around and like most people, I made promises of change for the new year. Promises to kick my weightloss journey up a notch, promises to be a better mom, homeschooling mom, and wife. Promises to be more involved in ministry. So many promises. But here’s the thing. I ain’t got no crystal ball and life can change on you so fast that it’ll leave you gasping for air.
Life changed on me.
I can’t go into the how right now, but I most certainly will sometime down the road. In fact, I can’t wait to include you! This change has left me feeling confused, yet a little excited. Because I didn’t see it coming, I’m still trying to wrap my mind around it. I’m still trying to sort out how to accomplish my goals, hold true to my promises, while dealing with it. Today I feel like I’m failing and I have to remind myself to take it one day at a time.
The one thing I know for sure is that my steps are ordered by the Lord, and that makes me feel like yeah, I can still be the super mom I want to be. I can still get my sexy back. I can continue to redefine myself and get to know myself better. I can find my happy, even if I have to take a detour along the way. It’s ok. This isn’t the first detour I’ve had to take in life, and it certainly won’t be the last. And not all detours are bad. Sometimes they’re simply surprising.
That’s all. As a reader of this blog, I love you. I love that you have stuck with me even though my posting thus far in 2016 has been spotty at best, and I thought that you deserved to know that I’m not slacking. I’m not giving up blogging. I’m just on a detour. Someday I will be able to include you in my detour and it will make writing so much easier again. Not just the fun stuff that is easy to post up (japan crate, events, etc), but the stuff that spills out of my heart. The heart of who I am is coming back to this blog, just please bear with me. I have some sorting out to do.